Reality vs. Expectation

It's easy to define those two terms, sabi nga, "been there. done that". But just to elaborate my personal definition,

REALITY for me is what happens at present. Ito yung ngayon--- na, for whatever reason, ito yung naging kapalaran mo.

While, EXPECTATION, ito yung gusto natin mangyari, it may not happen immediately, but hopefully, it will. Synonymous with dream, i guess?

Kanina I was watching 500 days of summer. It's a story between a boy and a girl named Summer who was so charming, lovable, and too friendly that made him fell in love with her. They are together 24/7, they hold hands, make out, kiss, hug in public that made this boy thought that there's something going on between them--- well considering what were mentioned, there is really something going on between them. Summer just doesn't want to admit.

The girl doesn't want any commitment, kung baga for her, "nakakasakal". But then eventually, she got married to a random guy in the middle of their so called "relationship".  He was surprised when he saw Summer wearing an engagement ring at some party and when they saw each other in a park, he said, "you don't want to be anybody's girlfriend, but now, you're somebody else's wife" 

Summer said, something like "I was sitting in a restaurant, reading a book and a man approaches me, and now he's my husband. So, what if I have gone to the movies instead? What if I went there 10 minutes after? That's destiny"

(end of my point)

After watching this movie for like 5 times, napaisip ako and natanong ko bigla sa sarili ko, "Yung expectation ko ba before, nangyayari ngayon in reality? May dream ba ako na nagkatotoo na at present?"

Kung sasagutin ko tong mga to, there are things na dream ko before na nangyari na, meron din namang nananatili as a dream and I have no idea kung kailan matutupad, well siguro hindi ako ang may hawak nung resulta, maaring may mga involve na tao o bagay na sila ang hinihintay ko para matupad ang ibang expectation ko na maging reality na.

Another thing, Kung iisipin din natin minsan, mayroong mga bagay na natutupad pero hindi tumatagal, yun ang mahirap. Siyempre nag invest ka na ng effort, oras, pera, o kung ano man, tapos nawawala din. Yung mga ganoong pangyayari ba. Hindi ka naman makapagturo kasi "TAYO" ang pumili sa option na mag invest ng sobra sa isang bagay o tao. Pag hindi ka naman gaano kumilos, "KULANG" naman. Gulo noh, hindi mo alam san ka lulugar. Hindi ba pwedeng may alarm ang utak at puso para magsabing, "Ooops, tama na, hanggang dito ka na lang"? 

So I guess I'm still battling between EXPECTATION and. REALITY. 

Anyway, I mentioned earlier about destiny, ayon nga kay Summer.

Do you believe in destiny or pure coincidence lang?

Destiny doesn't mean love lang ah, destiny with anything, tao, bagay, hayop, dream, etc? Ganun.

Ako, I don't really know. All I know is that God has plans for each of us. Minsan kala mo yun na yun, pero He's just waiting for the perfect timing lang pala.

Recently, I got confused with some things, ayoko na ielaborate, pero I'm still waiting for a sign from God. Medyo feeling ko meron na akong sign, ayoko lang magassume, Hmm, we'll see.

Happy Holidays Everyone!:)